Health- down
I would love to have a break, just a tiny little break, from being sick all the friggin time!
My sinuses are killing me, my eyesight is blurry from the pressure, my neck is getting stiffer and stiffer from who knows what, my stomach is churning and roiling, my ankle refuses to stay in joint, my ovarian cyst is acting up and I just cannot take much more before I completely lose it.
Between the chills and the spiking fevers and everything else I am done...
I have tried to 'fake it until I make it', but this is just all beating me down so hard and I wish that I could just hop in the car and go to the closest Hospital and tell them to 'fix it'!
People with Health Insurance have no idea just how good they have it... because without insurance if you go to the ER all they have to do by law is make sure you will not die in 24 hours and release you. This means that whatever is causing your health to spiral down will not be dealt with but instead a happy little band-aid will be slapped on that will do nothing and prolong the agony as you sit at home wondering if you should go back.
Yes, I am very cranky today... yesterday I only got 16 ounces in because any more was impossible and so far today I have 4 ounces in and the thought of more makes me turn green.
Yeah, I will bounce back and be all positive soon... right now I am going to allow myself to be cranky and express what I am feeling because I am human, too!
You are allowed to be cranky, just don't take it out on me in Words with Friends, lol. I'm trying hard not to let you kick my a@@ but maybe I should just think of more amusing words ;0P I've gotten about 6 ounces in and struggling, don't tell Nurse Erin, she will come beat me up. It's so hard to drink when not thirsty and even harder when with every sip, your stomach does a dance. But don't beat yourself up over being cranky, we all get there and we can't have light without dark. Sending big hugs and much love!
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