Health- asleep
Just what kind of post does one make when they have been doing nothing but sleeping?
My friendships (all online since any friends that I had before the internet have faded away long ago) are suffering because I just do not have the energy to interact and think, it is often all I can do to post to vote for my entry in the Reader's Digest contest on facebook to try to raise Awareness of Gastroparesis by having my story published in the magazine and try to follow their posts.
I often feel lately like I have let them down majorly because I am not able to give them the support that I used to, mainly because the moment I start to post a comment to what they say my mind goes blank and all I can do it post a hug... if I remember to hit the enter before I leave that page.
I want more than anything to be able to interact and help out where I can but I just can't seem to do it lately... actually not so lately, because this has been an increasing issue over the past months.
It has gotten so bad that I will fall asleep (often with my hands on the laptop) then wake and see that it is dark and be in a panic because I do not know what day it is and if I remembered to do my daily blog post so I have to check my cell phone to see what day it is then check my blog to see when the last post was made.
This happens daily, if not a couple of times a day and I always seem to be waking from sleep in a panic that I missed something and not being able to remember what I missed.
My cell phone itself rarely needs charging anymore because I just do not get the text messages and phone calls that I used to... mainly because I would not respond for a long time (asleep and missing the texts or calls until it is too late and I do not want to wake anyone then forget that I got one) or because I would see that I missed a call and then forget that I missed a call.
Malnutrition and dehydration from Gastroparesis not only robs you of the energy to do much at all but it also robs you of your friendships as your friends believe that you are pulling away when in fact you still think of them often and try to follow their actions online but just cannot think clearly enough to interact without feeling like you are not understanding what they are saying or you are trying to reply.
If this post makes no sense, I apologize... what I wrote confuses me as well.
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