Health: icky
I never did get a chance to log back on yesterday... Loki (my beloved Chihuahua, Service Dog and fellow Gastroparesis sufferer) had a bad day and needed my full attention. Poor little guy was trembling so bad with muscle spasms that he could not stand... so I gave him some Ensure and Pedialyte to get his minerals, vitamins and electrolytes back up and spent the day with him glued to my lap.
Unlike humans with Gastroparesis, he does not know what is happening... all he knows is that his belly hurts and he is tired and shaking and his whole body aches and he wants me to make it better.
Today he is doing better... I will simply add daily Ensure to his diet and hope that keeps his levels high enough to prevent these attacks.
That is all a person with Gastroparesis can do as well... try to get the nutrition they need into their bodies to prevent all of the symptoms of starvation and malnutrition or at least keep them at bay.
Today I am going to try to play foreman and direct where those saplings will go in the yard, but I just have no motivation... it is almost 2pm and I just have no "oomph".
The Ventricular Tachycardia is bothersome today... those insidious flutters in my chest that steal my breath away and all I can do is wait until they pass... and hope that they do and I don't.
One issue that I have is that I cannot take any medications other than OTC TUMS... I cannot take even a baby aspirin to try to deal with the pain... nothing for my high blood pressure... nothing for the tachycardia or arrhythmia... nothing for the low grade fever that I have had for over a year now. To tell the truth, I get jealous of my friends who also suffer from Gastroparesis that can at least try the few medications available for it. I do not resent them for it... but I do get jealous.
There is just nothing out there for me... I am severely allergic to the adhesives used in tape and patches so IV medications must be supplemented with mass doses of benedryl and patches for blood pressure and the rest cannot be used. I am allergic to all opiate pain relievers so even on IV I can be given nothing for the pain... artificial sweeteners cause full blown migraines (when I could still throw up that meant projectile vomiting but it still means the steel hitting steel pounding, light and sound sensitivity, vertigo, weakness and going blind for an hour from the ocular migraine that comes with it... the misery is just too much added to the pain I already deal with) and all liquid medications are made with artificial sweetener so it is safe for Diabetics... as are all Barium Solutions used to do many of the tests I need but can't have. Oh, they can go ahead and do the tests without the contrast but they will not be able to see what they need to see so they can't get the answers they need. I am also allergic to all MRI contrast material, adding to the inability to test fully.
There are days that I feel so hopeless, so left out of life.
Today is one of those days.
While brushing my hair I had to stop three times to rest and get my breath back as my heart pounded... I mean... COME ONNNNNN!!!
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