Health- tired
Well, the past 24 hours have been a blurring mix of editing an Awareness Video, asking friends to look for typos then redoing it and posting it to YouTube, then more typos being found, so re-editing and re-posting... repeat until it becomes surreal then do it a few more times, lol.
I think that I have it error free now and will be re-posting it again to YouTube (will post the link tomorrow).
A lesson to the wise... do not try to do a video with a lot of captions when exhausted or in a brain fog! (Then again, I live in that state so chances are that this will happen again and again)
I have been dealing with weirdness, what I kindly call "weirdpennyitis" the past few days and it is hard to explain exactly what I am feeling.
My heart is bounding (pounding and racing then slowing) all the time now and my muscles are in full twitch/spasm mode... either I can feel individual muscle groups moving and jumping or it seems like my whole body is and there is an earthquake going on. I know this is from magnesium deficiency, but I have only 1 Pediasure left and since that is my only source of magnesium it will only be getting worse.
I am freezing cold and hot at the same time and my whole body feels slightly numb and tingly but it is how my head feels that is the true "weirdpennyitis"... for the past three days my head has felt... well... big. It feels numb (the entire head) but when I touch my skin I can feel it so I know it is not numb. Add to this that my legs tremble and give out every time I try to do any walking and I know that malnutrition is starting to really affect me.
What can I do about this?
Well, if I had the gas I would drive the 90 miles to the only ER I have coverage at (through their health care for the indigent) or I could call tomorrow to see the doctor there in the clinic only to be told that at my weight (I am one of the 'lucky' ones that gained a lot of weight due to Gastroparesis so even though I have dropped a lot of weight that Doctor, who only knows the word Gastroparesis from medical school and believes that it only happens to Diabetics) that there is nothing wrong with me and will refuse to do blood work to check. So... I will do nothing but try my hardest to find a way to get magnesium, potassium, protein and electrolytes into me.
So... this is two weeks into my little social experiment and despite being exhausted I have managed to post every single day. This is a major victory for me!
On the sapling front, they did not make it into the ground today... but the yard was cut and I have been told that they will get in tomorrow (where have we heard this before?)
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