Health- exhausted
The word for today is "Exhausted", not to be confused with tired, sleepy or drained but to the bone "my hair hurts" exhausted.
Wednesday I spent about an hour and a half outside the house and walked a total of around 50 yards... yesterday I crawled around the yard (literally... it is easier to simply crawl on the ground to pull weeds than to try to stand and stoop) for about 30 minutes until the whole "rip the top off the ground bee nest then crawl for your life" thing... yet by yesterday afternoon I was crushed to the bone exhausted and that has not changed yet.
This is one of the challenges of having Gastroparesis...
When you are unable to get the nutrients, vitamins and minerals in because of a paralyzed digestive tract you have very little reserves and it can take days to recover strength after even the smallest of tasks and quite often your body 'robs' what it needs for activities from your muscles and bones.
For the normal person, what you eat and drink provides you with what you need to preform daily tasks and your body is able to store extra in fat cells, muscles, organs and bone and when you tap into those reserves you are able to replace it easily with a meal or two.
The person with Gastroparesis (especially those suffering from malnutrition or iron deficient anemia from Gastroparesis) is already working with deficiencies and when their body tries to tap those reserves the cupboard is bare. It is not like they can simply eat a few good meals and build back up... eating is at the center of the issue, so it can take a long time to get any energy back, but it always seems to be just a hair less than before the activity. Eventually it may lead (and often does lead) to the need of medical intervention (IV nutrients, vitamins and minerals or iron infusions).
So... in other words, the saplings are still awaiting planting because I can't walk to the door right now let alone get outside to see to them and it may be days or a few more weeks until I have recovered enough strength to get to it.
This is normal life... at least my normal life...
Thank you for sharing your experiences with this so freely and honestly. It's priceless to know there are others that relate to how complex gastroparesis really is, let alone how quickly the ups and downs happen throughout the day. I'm new to reading this and have some catching up to do. Looking forward to it.
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